The Living Rube Goldberg Machine

The world gave me neither wit nor beauty nor charm nor talent.
But it gave me intellect.
It only gave me intellect.
And so, I have sharpened this to a fine point.
And this fine point I will use.

Nothing calms the mind like a good problem to solve.

Can't get excited about Otakon. Want to be excited about Otakon. And Otakon is, despite the naysayers, still totally awesome. Just can't feel excited.

Understand this. I have fought for my entire life, with no help and my back against the wall. I refuse to victimize myself. When I burn out, when I am completely empty inside, it will be because I have given more than you ever could have.

Gonna go whale watching. Quite excited!!

I'll probably never find it easy to let go of the things that I can't change. Most people probably can't. For me, at least, it's not the big things that are hard to let go. You can only have so many big things in life at one time, so they eventually have to go. But like a pack rat, I try to hold on to little things way too long. Trying to fit in all the things I want into every last little nook and cranny of my life. Books I want to finish, games I want to start, projects I want to have behind me, etc. Sure, occasionally people stuff, too. Distant friends (emotionally, not geographically) that just don't seem to fit in my life, nor I in theirs.

Instead, I'm going to try harder to focus on the big and little things that matter. And I've been doing that, basically saying, "what the hell" and just pushing forward. So far, so good, but it's a bit... not scary, more like exciting, like the excitement of going down that first big drop on a roller coaster. In fact, that's almost a perfect analogy. Life is a roller coaster, and I'm liking it that way.

...I'm fussing about things I can't change. Things that don't even matter that much. Well, I'll count my blessings and if that doesn't work, ask for a smack in the face.

This has been one of those weeks that makes me glad I've had a lot of practice just carrying on. Can't say anything in particular was too bad. In fact, plenty of pleasant things happened this week. But a lot of annoying, aggravating, unhappy things, too. Well, here's to a better next week. Or heck, here's to a better right now.

Every day the world reminds me of all the things it's taken away from me.
Every day I show the world that I will accomplish more and more, faster than it can pull me down.

Or at least, I try.

How I spent my afternoon: write up a script to automatically update my pageview stats. Daily.

I accidentally deleted it once, but managed to rewrite it shortly, having had all the bugs worked out already.

#!/bin/sh

# define a default working directory
dirhome="/tmp/netstats"

# make some useful directories
mkdir -p $dirhome/null
mkdir -p $dirhome/gallery
mkdir -p $dirhome/stats
mkdir -p $dirhome/stats/gallery

# get updated logs
rsync -qa username@server.com:~/logs/gallery*.gz $dirhome/gallery/ > /dev/null 2>&1
rsync -qa username@server.com:~/logs/server*.gz $dirhome/null/ > /dev/null 2>&1

# get rid of stale files
rm -f $dirhome/stats/webalizer.*
rm -f $dirhome/stats/*.png
rm -f $dirhome/stats/*.html

# do the analysis
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Dec-2012.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Dec-2012.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Jan-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Jan-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Feb-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Feb-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Mar-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Mar-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Apr-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Apr-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-May-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-May-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Jun-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Jun-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Jul-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Jul-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Aug-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Aug-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Sep-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Sep-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Oct-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Oct-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Nov-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Nov-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/null/server.com-Dec-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "server.com" -o $dirhome/stats $dirhome/null/server.com-Dec-2013.gz
fi

# get rid of stale files
rm -f $dirhome/stats/gallery/webalizer.*
rm -f $dirhome/stats/gallery/*.png
rm -f $dirhome/stats/gallery/*.html

# do the analysis
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Dec-2012.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Dec-2012.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Jan-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Jan-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Feb-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Feb-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Mar-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Mar-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Apr-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Apr-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-May-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-May-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Jun-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Jun-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Jul-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Jul-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Aug-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Aug-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Sep-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Sep-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Oct-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Oct-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Nov-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Nov-2013.gz
fi
if [ -f $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Dec-2013.gz ]
then
webalizer -p -n "gallery.server.com" -o $dirhome/stats/gallery $dirhome/gallery/gallery.server.com-Dec-2013.gz
fi


# upload the results back to the web server
rsync -va $dirhome/stats/ username@server.com:~/public_html/stats/dynamic > /dev/null 2>&1


exit 0